Case and Point

I was contemplating on whether or not to post this.

What I am about to type within this paragraph is the reponse I've said in an email to someone. I've mentioned a few times how I have put up some boundaries compared to how I used to be. And I post things on my blog that many people would keep private. I don't post blogs on every fling I meet, and I never mention any names. And when I mention someone was crappy in bed, they could say the same about me, which of course would be a lie..lol. But what's on my blog is my point of view. People are welcome to respond and I'll post their opinion if it's not rude or demeaning. I have the balls to do that. I love smart constructive criticism.

So, in today's blog I am going to post about my family. Well, because I'm insulted.

My mother is a very caring woman. She spent hours cooking food for my birthday and they took home the leftovers. They wanted to go out to eat, I choose to eat-in instead. I'm a very picky eater, well, I am very picky in everything, hence why I am still single at 34. That and the fact that I am mentally unstable towards men...lol..yes, I've got issues, but I don't need any tissues. Anyway, I would of been fine with just my mother and I.

I ended up cleaning up after everyone, my father fell asleep at the dinner table than on the ottoment, and the cake was a few days old even though they (the liars at the so called bakery) lied and said it was fresh. But all this was fine, because my family was there, it's been 11 years...lol..they did a favour for showing up. It was fabulous! I never would expect anything more from family.

Onto another subject, people may think I'm too opened book, and I agree, I personally think being mysterious is hot. Mysterious can make someone interesting because you're left to only want more, to know more about that person. Revealing everything leaves nothing to the imagination.

Now, some may wonder why I don't do 'Vlogs'.  There are many reasons for that. For one, I am very self critical of myself and would have to go through 1000 takes to make sure it's perfect and that I look good and I don't have time to sit there and do 1000 takes. When I post pictures on various sites, out of let's say 50 photos of myself, I would only choose about one to three, and then after that I end up taking more pictures to get the right pose. All of the other pictures that are not chosen are erased. Yes, there is room for improvement, however at this current time, this is me.

Take it or leave it.

If you leave it, trust me I'll move right along, I'm a big boy.

I know I'm not everyone's cup of Joe and I know that a lot of people are not my cup of tea. This is life, my friends. But I know if I were in a different city, perhaps living in the US, I wouldn't be single today. Canadian people tend to be reserved turtles, turtles in a sense where you need a hammer to crack open the shell and they go hiding when you're too far out there, perhaps I am too far out there for my fellow Canadian immigrants (I'm a minority in our country), so let's blame it on my fellow Canadians.

Live, laugh and love a lot. Life is short. Sense of humor is sexy.

Next month the drug addict aunt is visiting from Israel, yes the same one I visited in April, and oh man, all hell is gonna break loose when she's here, it's going to be a warzone. All I know is I'm keep myself away, faaaar away I want nothing to do with it. And besides, I don't want to see her manly lesbo face anyway. Anyone who disrespects me or did what she did for no reason at all, is cut out of my life. I usually forgive and forget because everyone should forgive, but I did that way too many times with my brother way... too many times, but both of them are cut out for good. If you allow people to treat you like dirt for no reason, if you did not nothing to them to deserve it, (and it's not "you may think you did nothing to them", it's I really did nothing) you should not surround yourself toxic people. It's about respecting yourself and don't take crap from people. Especially from your own family!! You gotta stand up, stand up and take control. At the end of the day it's how you feel about yourself. And if you're feelin that low about yourself to allow others do that to you, you're just digging that hole. HellO! I've been on that block many times, those days are long gone.

Point and case, the other day we went to visit my grandparents, we were waiting for the elevator at their retirement home and I bumped into my brother, I didn't acknowledge his presence and walked right past him.

I say what I mean, what you see is what you get, there is no other way with me.

Didn't I say my family is F**KED UP???  It's quite sad that it has to be this way, but it is.

This blog would of been double the length but I edited a lot of it out.