Incubation

SO I deleted the post about my romp (the sex could of been a lot better) and possible stomach inflate due to splurge day which was and always an over dramatic phase. The reason why I deleted it is because I want to forget about the person.

I am truly convinced that gays are programmed, it's in their DNA to be sexpigs...SEX SEX SEX, it's so damn over-rated., It's about top or bottom and size of the dick. I've had awesome sex and I've had mediocre sex, I've had big one's and little one's and in between, there's so much to life than playing with the dick and finding it to stick in somewhere. But let's get something straight here and trust me I know from experience, a guy can have a dick the size of the CN Tower it's technique and how good they're in bed that counts. The size has nothing to do how good someone is in bed. And if one needs something big perhaps you have a loose goose going on.

Stich It UP!

I am highly convinced that romance is dead. Women would love me as a husband. Gay men, don't care for that. It's not something I would of choosen if I had the choice.

But when relationships start off sexual, most times the relationship will fail. Sex is not the foundation of a successful, happy and healthy relationship. So those who believe that relationships start off from a one night stand...wishful fantasy thinking.

Now you may find this quite sad and believe me, so do I, but for once ever in the history of JoeySlutness (the slut phases come around spring time during mating season, after a 2 year hiatus), I've actually made breakfast in the morning for this one week fling..lol..they're usually out the door the morning after for the one's that happen to stay til the morning, if it's not lasting more than one night, hell to the no I ain't feeding you. But in all seriousness, I've got to give myself credit. I excel and I have excellent skill at being intuitive. Let me explain..

I'm quick to pick up on things, on people's character and personality and what they're all about. And when this person was at my place for the 2nd time, something about his demeanor in the car and his conversation with his friend on his phone that turned me right off and set off alarms in my head. And I was right, a few days later my intuition was right and it all ended. If I notice that a certain pattern is broken or behaviour is a bit off, my instincts come save the day. Believe it or not, when it comes to friendships and relationships I am the most honest guy in the world and when someone betrays my trust, they're history done like burnt toast. And I believe in communication. Communication is the key to a healthy and happy relationship, without it, it tumbles. I wouldn't be compatiable with someone who bottles up their emotions or keeps things in. I need to know things, feelings etc.  Got to have respect in a relationship as well. You got to respect yourself and the person you're with. And you got to be honest with yourself and the person you're with. I have little experience in the long term department, sadly, and even I know this stuff.

Anyway, before this all happened with the guy, I actually liked him, besides him being overly effeminate which is a huge turn off to me, I must admit I'm not butch, but I'm no way girlie like except for some of my music tastes. And I don't live a gay lifestyle, I don't go to bars/clubs, and I stay away from the scene, parades etc. My sexuality is just that,  it's not what I'm about.It's just what I do behind closed doors.  I am Joey as an individual, not I am GAY.

Talking about labels, my tastes are more masculine than my brother and he's straight. When I used to be in good terms with him for that slight mere moment, on one occasion he comes walking out with gold GUCCI sunglasses with the letter G on the side, and I'm like what the fuck is that about. Yea, many times I thought Liberace walked out.

Yes, I come from a very dysfunctional and odd family. Hello, look at me for god's sake, I'm quite the odd ball in an interesting and complex way.

On a different note...it's amazing how kids, babies they grow up so quick, so fast. It seemed like just the other day my niece was born and now at 15 months she's fully walking and full of life and character. She knows how to take things out of drawers, put things back, bend and pick up her pacifier that she dropped, she dances and she captures your heart. I said to my sister, I would adopt her in a heartbeat. She's a gem, she's even got big blue eyes and neither my sister nor her husband has blue eyes. Every time I visit she runs to me and hugs me and puts her hands out for me to pick her up. She's got competition (they both want my attention) with one of my parents dogs, the one who hates everyone except me for me. So as a joke everytime I walk in I say "where my boyfriend?". I protect him from my niece, she's kinda rough on him pulling his leg, the dog is so tiny. My family wants me to take him home, but I refuse to because I don't want him to be a pancake one morning. He's so tiny that I'm scared he'll be splattered by accident. I prefer medium dogs. But not at this present time.

Lately, I have been pondering on the thoughts of getting Abdominoplasty. I'm not too crazy about being cut open but I can't help think about the end result and how happy I would be about it. We'll see. Right now, it's not a priority. Perhaps hiring a fitness trainer could do the trick. All I want is it to be flat, I don't care about 6 packs, just flat. Not even hard. Just flat. Next up, hair plugs...HELL TO THE NO!

Life is better without the toxic people in it. For the past few weeks I've not been in talking terms with a "friend" and life seems so much less toxic, for the lack of a better word.

I'm loving the Amazon 'Kindle2'. I sold my Sony e-Reader and purchased the Kindle2. It's not available in Canada but there is always a way for most things. You can find it on eBay. Even though the over-the-air technology is not available in Canada to get the books, you can download the books onto your computer and then transfer it onto the Kindle using the USB cord. If you only have a Canadian credit card, you will need to buy Amazon gift certificates then use that to purchase the books otherwise Amazon will not allow you to buy them.

I think the Kindle is much better than the Sony version, the text is much better, so is the navigation, you can highlight and insert notes. Just released, there's a new version, Kindle DX with a 9.5" screen, I might as well get a netbook if I wanted a 9.5 screen device to carry around, it even costs more than a netbook, about $489US (for some odd reason people are selling it for $600US on eBay). I've read the reason why Amazon is not bringing it to Canada is because there's no market for it here and that they would have to get technology and Canadian publishing agreements which can be costly and not worth their time for the small market in Canada, since they already have the market in the US. But I also read Indigo Bookstore is working on getting their own e-reader later this year.

The Sony Bookstore for their e-reader is a bit higher in costs per book.

I'm an electronic junkie, I love electronics. I want a MacBook Pro and finally get rid of PC. I already have the Macmini but I hate sitting at a desk for so long, laptops rule! For example, right now, I'm lying in my bed naked with my laptop as I type this. 

Talk about incubation of the testicles.

A new version of the iphone will be released in the coming weeks, iphone 3GS, it's not a huge upgrade from the previous version, just better battery life, (the battery life on the previous version is crappy), a 3.2 camera and voice activation. All of these features are nothing new among cell phones, I was expecting much better. The iphone is very overrated, there are better PDA's out there with touchscreen, iphone is more of a toy then anything. Obviously not for the business people, BlackBerry is the way to go. I wanna know more about the Palm Pre.

On a wholy different topic..You might be on a spiral or in a situation where things aren't going well, you may not be motivated or inspired (perhaps it's the people in your life) and you're one of those people who have friends or/and family who seem to be around only when things are going well. Friends/family are there no matter what, up's or/and down's. They're there to motivate when things aren't going well. They're there to be that shoulder when you need to cry and let it out. They're there for the celebrations and the triumphs.

Time is now to Get rid of the unsupportive people in your life and everything good will come, all that abundance will follow . By getting rid of the toxic, you're respecting yourself. You got to only accept the best in life and what's good for you, nothing less. You're worth it. People who hate to see you succeed or keep bringing you down are only trash and what do you have to do with trash? You get rid of it!

Value yourself and you don't when you're surrounding yourself with toxic people, it will only keep you going down in that spiral.  Because remember, that day when will come when you'll say..

Look at me now, bitch!

Now, excuse me as I go practise what I preach.